So why don't we go,

We drown them all.

2011-12-26T03:11:00.004+08:00

"All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, and I promise you something great will come of it."

This is taken from We Bought A Zoo's soundtrack.
It's a very lovely movie, very heartwarming. I highly recommend this video, especially if you're one for animals. I'm not gonna lie; my aunt & I shed some tears throughout the entire film. I wanted to give everybody the biggest hug I could give, especially Dylan. He's a misunderstood little kid. Also, it has a phenomenal soundtrack, in my opinion. The opening credits said the music was composed by Jónsi, and I knew I was in for rather an emotional ride - I'm a fan of his work, and it moved me just by music, let alone if it came along with drama, I knew it would reduce me to tears.

This film has taught me many morals. Combined with recent dreams I've had within the past few weeks, which also contributed to the pool of tears I've created, I realise that I'm not getting any younger. I need to do things I've always wanted to do. I need to do things for the sake of it. I need to do insane things for the sake of it. I need to do every insane thing there is to do, just so it can weave itself into a story. I need to keep going, that even the craziest of ideas need only a little bit of effort and a little bit of faith. I need to explore every inch of the world there is to explore. I need to travel and visit every continent on Earth and start there. I need to explore my mind. I need to let the violent hurricane swallow every bit of my conscience. I need to explore people and how their hands move through shadows. I need to explore their eyes, the midnight in them, before dawn arrives. I need to feel. I need to venture. I need to wander. I need to get lost. I need to live.

I suppose it's safe to say, I'm finally happy; I don't have any problems weighing me to the centre of an emotional hurricane, my friends are basically drama-free, I attended an amazing course that made me realise that socializing isn't all bad - you just need to meet the right people, and I'm pretty much on my way to living my parents' dreams and mine. And what's better than making your family proud and chasing your own ambitions at the same time?

I'm frightened though. When anything good happens, something bad comes after. That's the way of life. We've all been through it. And seeing as the year's been nothing but joy and elation, I'm worried next year wouldn't be as kind.

Some say that you've got to go with the flow, God's decided your fate and He knows where you'll end up, even if you get lost along the way. And for the most part, I'm as relaxed as I'll ever be. But there are some days where you don't do anything but think. Those days come more often than they should, given my over-analyzing brain, but not often enough to trouble me.

But I'm happy. I'm ending 2011 on a high note; and it really couldn't have been better.
So Merry Christmas & Happy 2012.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I thought of you this morning.

2011-07-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, luck isn't enough.

I really, really want to write a story. A very depressing one. A story where a character has a chronic disease, like Parkinsons'. Or someone's autistic. Or someone has cancer. Or Huntington's disease.

But I have to knowledge on these stuff. So I'm stuck with typical love stories.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

But they couldn't quite remember.

2011-07-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

Serenade me away from this insanity.

Just sort of felt the need to write. Apparently Kat can identify my writing by the choice of words. Though she might confuse it with Ming's, 'cause she's not sure what Ming's style is.

I feel like writing a love scene between Teddie & Becky, but I have no idea. How can love exist between a child-like enthusiastic girl and a cocky, cheeky & sexy playboy?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And it's all that I can hear.

2011-05-25T15:49:00.001+08:00

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?

You saw me start to believe for the first time.

I have taken the effort, multiple times, to explain myself to some people. In the end, after half an hour or so, they wouldn't understand me any more than they did before. Probably only the fact that I'm more complicated than you think. I'm not sure if they can't link my likes & preferences or they just simply can't catch up, but they just can't get it.

I guess I'm proud to be complicated.

-------------------------

So since we had free periods right up to period 9, the whole class was buzzing with the freedom of after-exams. I started talking to Yisian, right in the middle of class, on the floor. First we talked about the places I've been to holiday to, and we agreed that I was lucky to travel that much. But it's even worse to know that you've been around the world, but you can't remember a thing because you were too young or engrossed with the wonders of French ice cream or distracted by having cool breezes every day.

Then I started being nostalgic & thoughtful and asked them a question;

"Now that we're in high school, and you probably can't imagine your life without your friends; it practically revolves around them. But 10 years from now, once we've gone separate ways, studied separate fields, taken separate jobs, maybe even live in separate continents, would we remember who we sat next to in Form 3? Would we send still stay in touch, write letters at the very least? Would we get invited to each other's weddings? Would we remember that day when we were suppose to do a project but ended up camwhoring around my room? Would we remember the day we both went to Disney on Ice and giggled like 5 year olds again? Would we remember that story I wrote and filled the exercise book with?

Would we even cross each other's minds?"

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I can see your shadow.

2011-05-21T00:31:00.002+08:00

Because sometimes, all I need is escape.

There are many things I want to talk about today. Seeing as I'm in my writing mood;

I made a playlist for moments when I'm feeling emo or depressed, be it with a decent reason or no reason at all.
And I feel like such a hypocrite. 'Cause I just tweeted how depressed some people despite them still being at the age of 15. I mean, you can still get a child's ticket in England when you're 15. And you make it seem as if you have more problems than a divorced woman twice your age. Seriously? Yvonne said, maybe we're not exposed enough. I think we're exposed to decent things. They may not be productive or beneficial for our near future, but at least it doesn't get us depressed as fuck.
Father said the police might come and snatch my laptop away.
I sort of wish it won't happen, but I sort of wish it does. Because if it gets taken away, means all the things that I've saved on this computer will be lost, like all my files since I was 9 up to 12 when my dad formatted the computer about a year ago. I guess it helps me find closure. I tend to get attached to insignificant things, even though the story behind it is pathetic.
But then, if it gets taken away, he promised to get me a new laptop. This means I'll have a chance to get Windows 7. So I'll be able to get a SonyPro or whatever and I can make videos and make my ships happen.
I honestly wish I'd have enough motivation to make myself write in a neater penmanship. I'm inspired by Nicole & Yisian.
Because I almost never finish what I start. I'd get motivated at first, but it will fade rather fast. I'm worried I might have commitment issues, and I make up excuses. I swear, I'm gonna become my own Jekyll & Hyde soon enough.

That wasn't much, was it?

So today, during agama, since I finished early - because I didn't know half the answers - I was forced to entertain myself for an hour and a half. This resulted in my question paper being covered with 59 confessions I've wanted to say face-to-face. I would, but it's too harsh. And if they listen to me, then there would be nothing distinctive about them.

This, I noticed, also means that my level of tolerance has decreased to, uhh, almost nothing. I should realise that nobody's perfect and everyone's going to have more than 1 trait that I'll dislike. It's in everyone.

God, I hate being hot-tempered and easily annoyed.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Over a fire of amber coal.

2011-04-25T17:31:00.000+08:00

Maybe Mother should get an apartment. It'd sorta be cool.

But then I'd forget if my stuff are here or in the apartment.

Or maybe I should just stop wishing for things that won't ever happen.

e vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Through my tender window.

2011-04-24T00:33:00.004+08:00

Hana's spectacular post have given me sudden inspiration.

& I'm in the mood to write.

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

People have asked me numerous times if I was going to Leo's dinner. Often the same people.
The answer's always no.
Why?
I'll tell you why.

Because I don't have a ticket. I'm not allowed to enter without a ticket, am I not? Right. And as you know, it's quite hard to get tickets as they sold out pretty early.

Because I only own 3 dresses; one is black, a rather low cut & long, I wore that one to the St. Johns' Annual dinner back in 2009, I don't like it very much; one is royal blue with quite a nice bodice, it would've fit the Glitz & Glamour theme, but apparently everybody's wearing tube minidresses; the other is a knee-length black georgette, my favourite, but I've worn it to last year's Leo event. I'm too lazy to go shopping for another one & I'd rather go shopping along Oxford Street, hopefully next year.

Because I realised I'm unbearably awkward around groups of people, let alone a party. My friends say it isn't obvious, or maybe they're being nice, but I don't like it. I'd much prefer daydreaming on my excessively-comfy bed.

Because there are certain people that I'd rather not see more than 5 days a week. Because when I see them more than that, I start over-analyzing the little things they do and it stirs up a hatred inside me. It's just one of those issues I have. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing, no?

Because I have too many unread storybooks. My mother complains about it, as does my friends, because I'll almost always leave Borders and MPH with a new storybook. I have to read them, and what better time than when you have all day tomorrow to stress about your homework and half of your friends are dancing their feet off a mile away, so they can't distract you? And at least I leave the strain of reality, even if it's just for a while.

Because I'd like to save as much money as I can for the planned London trip next year, or maybe the baker's boy hat from Accessorize. I've been dying to travel to England ever since I came back, and this time, my mum and I decided to go to the theatre everyday, just because it's the norm & it's a luxury I hardly get here.

Because my father isn't home tonight and I intend to stay home and enjoy the bliss of his absence. This is something that happens often, but never planned. If he was here, I wouldn't be long enough in the computer chair for it to become even slightly warm from my body heat. Now, it's peace.

Because I'd like to listen to my own choice of music, whether it's badass Panic! or the rare Bunkface or something touching like Keane depending on my current mood, and not mainstream songs, although I know I'd probably not realise it until it's almost over.

Because I don't want to miss Criminal Minds, the TV show that I've recently been hooked on. I've developed an exceptional fondness for Matthew Gray Gubler, especially in Season 6 because he's sporting shorter hair. Since I can't hang out with him in reality, I'd like to spend some time in front of the TV taking in and getting inspired by Dr. Spencer Reid's intelligence and fast speech, admiring Matthew for remembering and reciting his lines very well, wondering what he'd be like in real life and pretending to be an FBI agent myself.

So, no, I'm not going to Leo's.
Instead I'm at home, wearing a comfy t-shirt I used to wear to my tennis lessons and boxer shorts, imagining about my dreams about my future, with only my mum in the same room as me, finished Entwined by Heather Dixon, saved however much money that the the ticket cost, completely dad-free, listening to 'Somewhere Only We Know' and wishing I could make videos to that song and watched the ever-amazing Reid in figuring out the suspect in 'Safe Haven'.

I had a good night. I hope you did too.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

No turning back.

2011-04-11T17:33:00.001+08:00

Do you know what this gorgeous young girl did for me?

Sure you don't.

THAT.

It really is too pretty for me to even start complimenting it.

I shall start calling you Lucy now.

Thanks a million, Luce.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

'Til we grow old.

2011-03-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

Lights will guide you home.

So I was cleaning out my thumbdrives, sorting out all the junk I've saved on the computer, and came across this 4 paged story I used to write.

When I was reading through it, I have a feeling I had someone like Sabrina help me. 'Cause I couldn't possibly have written that good. I can no longer write like that anymore. And this upsets me very much.

I miss writing, I really do. But being all anti-mainstream, I can't write a cliche story.

I shall start writing soon. And hopefully, I can rise to the level I achieved last year.

I'm a sad excuse for a person.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Nobody wants to do it on their own.

2011-02-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged in ages. I'm surprised if I even still have readers. But, whatever.

The side effects of fasting voluntarily;

Getting extremely hyper during Agama class.
Come up with a violent & depressing story about a teenager losing her best friend, sister she never knew she had & boyfriend and parents killed by a psycho killer because of a mistake her parents did way back when during Agama class.
Creating psycho killer scenarios for every class and the method the psycho killer is going to use for her killings.
Crave for ice-cream that has already stopped business in the nearby mall for the past 5 years.

Anis went crazy over my chocolate chip cookies, and demanded I bake more by Sunday. I cannot eat another chocolate chip cookie baked by myself. It tastes horrible now.

Speaking of Sunday, I'm - and Puteri - are suppose to fit 6 people in a car, driver included. If Anis & Aziza bail, then my mum can safely drive her trusty old Satria to fetch us from UM on Sunday. Otherwise, we're going to have to hire a bus :|

On an unrelated note, I'm working on 3 stories and I'm not sure which one to continue.

The cliche love story that takes place in Paris (the dream I've always wanted to happen) & the only one with a solid storyline.
The other cliche love story which takes place in England, but doesn't have a storyline whatsoever. Or it does, but it was roughly set in the Victorian times and I can't write about the 19th century. So when I modernize it, it sounds weird because some aspects are still only logical if set in the 19th century.
The psycho killer story, that has a satisfying prologue, but apparently has an extremely depressing storyline according to Alya.

Oh, what a sick mind I have.

I should really start studing. It's 10 days to exam and I haven't touched anything yet.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

The sun is blazing.

2010-11-16T16:00:00.003+08:00

You'll never enjoy your life,
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
Force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
It's time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
And looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
The time is now

Try to have no regrets
Even if it's just tonight
How you gonnna walk ahead
If you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position,
You deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us,
Just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around
And looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
The time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What's in you is out there

I'm trying to be patient (I'm trying to be patient)
The first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it,
Go ahead and take it

I'm Waiting, waiting, just waiting I'm waiting
I'm waiting, waiting, just waiting
I'm waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

You'll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You're so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?

You're more than right, Grayson.

Thankyou.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

We should come back.

2010-11-11T21:45:00.001+08:00

Believe me, she's got the whole place glowing.

Tomorrow's the last day. I shall make it memorable, no matter what it takes :')

Hung out with Christiee, Bowen, Avyi and Jean-Phillippe, since Zexian was playing basketball. So, yeah. Got ditched a few times, and walked around school until my legs hurt. Everyone seemed to be camera shy, but I promise I'll make them pay tomorrow >D

Oh, and Kurt shall meet Finn again tomorrow! Christiee's classical guitar. I hope Andrew won't stop playing 'the German song' again -_-'

I feel good I was a part of piecing back together a shattered friendship. (:

xx.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

We drove to Cali.

2010-11-10T00:16:00.001+08:00

The darkness only exists so that the stars can shine, darling.

2 Teratai is epic squeezed into 40 people who are squashed into the class next to the toilet.

I will miss every moment of this year spent in this room. No lie. I love you.

Joshua, Yisiang, Zongyang & Andrew were against Avyi and Mervyn in a war, of which one pen was involved. I took pity on the pen, it bounced off the walls, ceiling and windows. It's saviour was Sooling.

"HEY, THROW PAPER LAH NOT PEN!"

Puan Asyikin came in as they were at their climax of the battle. Punishment: duck walk around the class. THAT was funny.

And according to Andrew, jamming session tomorrow. 5 guitars in a class. Wouldn't that be interesting? (;

Kurt won't be so lonely anymore.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Forcing laughter, faking smiles.

2010-11-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

This night is flawless, don't you let it go.

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone.

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you.

Please don't be in love with someone else,

Please don't have somebody waiting on you.

Officially abandoned. LOL. Nobody reads this anymore.

But, whatever.

Enchanted's on repeat practially 24/7.

And I've lost inspiration for my stories. But I'm pretty adamant to finish them, no matter what life throws at me. Okay, that sounded quoted, but whatever.

I miss you.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Tonight alone in my room.

2010-04-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging. Shocker there.

Things are awesome these days, minus the fever, cough and flu. I miss school. Yes, I hardly say that. But I went to school yesterday. My friends are awesome. You know why?

Because Afy, Chris and I didn't exactly pay attention in Science. Then Puan Fadzillah asked us to do some experiment thingy majigy. So, Chris, being the oh-so-rajin one, went to get all the materials and apparatus' from the teacher.

I had to light the Bunsen burner three times. Cool, aight?

Half-way through it, Sem, Alya and Avyi came. Avyi didn't originally come to our table, but said "What are you boiling the damn Visking tube?!" and took over our experiment from there, actually. And we got confused between the starch and glucose, and Avyi poured our boiled iodine solution down the drain. When he got the new one, we figured out which was starch and glucose. And for some reason, that iodine was poured into the sink too.

After all the massive hoo-haa, we didn't actually finish it because we started 10 minutes before class was over. And I was superhero of the day.

Why? Because I turned off the Bunsen burner. Saya batu :)

So. Yes. That was yesterday. I'm talking like a British now, because Wild Child's dialogues are stuck in my head.

My life is interesting, no?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

What could I say?

2010-04-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

JUST FREAKING DISAPPEAR, WILL YOU?!

You understand simple English, I assume. Right.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

This feeling's taking control of me.

2010-03-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

That's what happens to dreams.

Life gets in the way.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

So make it count.

2010-03-25T11:27:00.003+08:00

Encik Azwie forces people to do things they don't want to.

Because of him,

I turned this

to this

What miracles do.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Zip your lips like a padlock.

2010-03-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

I just realised every homework I have not done is Mathematics homework.

I feel like watching a movie. But everyone's going to be sleeping tomorrow, or staying at home watching movies and screaming at the TV screen how bloody ****ing hot that specific actor is and trying to stop themselves from doing that by munching on pizza. Like what I did today.

Did I mention Sam Worthington is so bloody ****ing hot?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

She's the type of girl.

2010-03-20T00:28:00.001+08:00

TODAY

I had fun fighting ;

skating;

falling;

satisfying Sam's addictive pose;

cam-whoring;

deleting retarded pictures;

taking retarded pictures;

taking normal photos;

playing concentration;

taking awesome photos;

bowling;

(i'm the second A, fyi :D)

eating;

shopping;

and being grateful I have friends like these :)

Oh, and

Farhana Hadi, you're one gorgeous human.

Fullstop. ;)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

She's indecisive.

2010-03-17T23:59:00.018+08:00

You know what?

I hated Sam today :D

Well.

'Cause she abandoned me when we were skating.

But I'm not alone.

Xinyen, Chris and Clarice hate her too :)

LOL.

This is so funny :D

Xinyen looks like Puiyee ._.

Zacharyyy.

I have a picture of youuu :]

So pretty :)

ZOMFG. I love this one :D

Ken looks like James/Norman, no?

See lah who's paying -.-'

Saaammmm!

Your pink thingy ;p

Ice-skating rocks my socks off.

Although I have contusions on my ankles and knees.

And Ken has the weirdest phone on Earth.
God knows how he survives o.o

I feel so smart when I use the word contusion :D

Not tryin' to rewind.

2010-03-16T22:58:00.001+08:00

I'm cool like that.

Wrong topic, wrong sequence.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Burning brighter than the sun.

2010-03-15T15:50:00.002+08:00

I have a better life than Blogger.

Carry me through the night ;;

Coming undone, thanks.

But I hate formspring. Sorta.

I tumblr alot nowadays.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Spelling out your name.

2010-03-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

GIVE.

UP.

~~I won't bother anymore.~~

At least, I'll try.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Let me tell you.

2010-03-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

I feel like watching Merlin.

I can't go out.

So,

can someone please PLEASE buy the whole series on DVD for me?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Emeralds for mountains.

2010-03-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

Have I stopped blogging?

Anyway. I went to see the oh-so-drop dead gorgeous screamable huggable hair-rippable Stephen Rahman-Hughes. OHMYGOD. And I was sitting right in front of him. And he smiled at meh :D

Just so you know;

I watched it

TWICE

He's so bloody hot.

Look.

DIMPLES!

I'm surprised I managed to stay vertical.

I was literally incapable of human speech.

I only said thanks.

And shook his hand :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I don't need a parachute.

2010-03-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

I'm back. Though I can't say I'm celebrating. You know what happened? My room felt alien-ish, yet familiar. Like you're in your best friend's room; known the same room for years, but knowing it's not yours either? Yeah. My room felt like that. MY ROOM.

I loved England. Heck, I almost considered migrating there. Then come here during summer, heee :D Had meals at this uber awesome Malay restaurant. And you know what? The waiter was hot :) I mean, he's Malay, yeah. But hott :D You don't get that often. So don't get me started on the non-malays.

OHMYGOD. Going anywhere was heaven, regardless where to. Unless the 3 days my dad spent driving to Scotland - correction, driving around Scotland. I literally spent 3 days in a car. Stopped only to stock up goodies, water and go to the toilet. And to sleep of course.

It snowed in Scotland. Yeah, well, it was so bloody cold. -2oC in broad daylight. Imagine after sundown. It once went to -15 ._. So, yeah. As my dad was driving around looking for a place to sleep (yeah, long story), we had to survive 5 hours of no connection. Like, literally. I mean, no phone signal, and the roads were empty. EMPTY. No any other car. Or maybe 1 or 2 between the WHOLE journey. Okay, so maybe 4 or 5, but you get the idea. Eventually a ~~polic~~ no, hot policeman came. He was a saviouurrrr. And he had a hot Scottish accent :D

Then we eventually found a place back in England, checked in at 2 AM. And slept at 3. We left the milkshakes and juices outside the door. They had natural ice cubes in them 5 hours later :D Anyway, on that day, we were on the road since 9am from England, and almost up to the tip of Scotland, and back to England. Scotland's scary at night. But awesomely cool in daylight :D

Anyway, Windermere had this gorgeous lodge. Like, superbly gorgeous. OHMYGOD. And the lake. The scenery was drop dead awesomely gorgeous. I want to go there again and again and again. Would've considered living there, but the village is too small ._.

Once I got to London, I conquered Oxford Street :) Got beautiful dresses there, and bought like, 10 pair of pants. Actually walked from one end to the other in one day. Ain't I cool? :)

Apparently Thursdays are half days there. So, went late night shopping.

All in all, I love England. I think I've made that clear a long time ago. But times that by 7. :)
But somehow, I did not know what souvenirs to get you guys. At all.

Don't worry, I still got you something :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

No one else knows.

2010-02-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

This is probably the last day I'll be going online, because I can't take my laptop with me ):

I asked for a DSLR from Atok, he gave me 300 pounds instead. There goes my dreams of London photography I always wanted. D:

So now, I can only use the retarded semi-pro. ): ): ):

I would've asked him to go buy it now, but I don't even know if I can bring it there. My clothes are too heavy -.-'

Grr. I'm bored. I haven't started packing yet. :\

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You wore a dark grey T-shirt.

2010-02-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

I FINISHED MY PROJECT. OHMYGOD. HALLELUJAAAAAHHHHHH!

Now to pray that the bookshop will be empty and my wish would come true. Pleasepleaseplease.

I can relax. For 10 minutes. I still need to get there early. I have a very hectic life. Can I skip tuition again today please? I didn't think so. Sigh.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Time slows down whenever you're around.

2010-02-23T22:40:00.001+08:00

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there

I felt quite emo today. Which only now I realised. So does it count? Anyway. I felt sort of mad at someone. You know, you're just a typical spoilt brat. So, just STOP. Okay? I'm sick of it.

I'm not going to rant about them. No, I shall not.

A dozen people are coming to my house to learn how to dance. That's very weird. But I'm doing it for the sake of Fy.

Oh, SMKDU has it's on personal Form 2 zoo.

Afy ; Monkey

Chris ; Bunny

Puteri ; Swan

Amirah ; Anak kuda alim/botak, TEEHEE.

Anis ; Jaguar O:

Shash ; Grizzly bear.

Sem ; Giraffe. D'uh. Who can't figure that out?

Shihou ; Alvin :)

Bowen ; Goldfish ._. but it's not official. LOL. Sorry :)

James ; Girl. It's sort of an insult, but then again we can't think of his inner animal.

Aswad ; Cullen, personal vampire :)

Alya ; Mouse. Again - who can't figure that out?

& me? ; Panda. Grrawr.

Yes. We have a pet zoo. But I'm the coolest ;)

I've been reading The Farmer Needs A Wife for weeks now. I'm reading 11 books. OHMYGOD. I need to finish one -.-' I've forgotten how it feels when you finish a book. I think I would sing Hallelujah at this rate :\

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Shawty all up in the club.

2010-02-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

I DON'T BLOG ANYMORE O:

Alya is surprised.
Well. I'm sort of hibernating from the laptop.

For next week, comfirmed.

I SHALL GO TO ENGLAND AND ENJOY THE SCENERY. of hunks.

So. Farewell, for now, people (:

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

The pretty lights.

2010-02-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

Weiwen can never EVER marry a British. She can't pronounce their surnames. Oh well. More for me >D

Supernatural is hotness. And Weiwen gave me the link for Miami Season 8. OH LOVE :D

On second thought, Merlin has more hot points. I'mma switching :D

If My Heart Was A House - Owl City. Love :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Good time starts to pass.

2010-02-16T19:53:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I spammed Mae today (:

Do click to enlarge.

It's fun. But I shall spam her some more (:

I'm not satisfied. You know I love you :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

For the first time.

2010-02-16T12:00:00.001+08:00

I'm listening to this;

Yes, you can't actually understand a word. It doesn't sound like there's even an English word in it.

Even though I feel like puking at the sound of this (I've listened to it a little over too much), but I don't have the mood for anything else. This is very fascinating.

Told you I was insane.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I'm running out of ways.

2010-02-16T11:24:00.001+08:00

I'm becoming insane.

It only takes so little to make me feel better. Is that too much to ask?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Were all misunderstood.

2010-02-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

If I had the money, I'd offer Alya a handphone. With a sim card. I can't seem to get in touch with her whatsoever. WHATSOEVER. I don't think we can finish the project by this week then. I don't know what to do.

My mom laaa. She bought tickets for a 6.15 movie on Wednesday. WHEN IN GOD'S NAME DID I SAY I WAS FREE ON WEDNESDAY?!?! So I had to reschedule. Puan Jun said she wanted tuiton on Tuesday. So I thought ask Sem and Alya to come on Weds, then maybe go home early. Then Puan Jun said Wednesday morning. LAST NIGHT. So, I couldn't get Alya nor Sem. Now what? Then probably my mom felt bad, she rescheduled the tuition for Friday. It doesn't help WHATSOEVER and you just took up my free day.

Save me.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

It's so outrageous.

2010-02-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

I'm having extreme mood swings. And I'm so mad and emo. Why? Because I have no time to hibernate. Look;

Saturday, I have tuition.
Sunday, my relative came.
Monday, I have to go to my relative's house, to eat. She insisted.
Tuesday, my dad wants to go shopping. Not that I object, but I'd like a MP4 and a memory card instead.
Wednesday, people are suppose to come to do the project, but I have a feeling it ain't going nowhere. Plus they have to go home early 'cause I have a movie at 6, which means they have to go home at 4 and it has to start at 9 or so. If you're reading this, my mom chose the time. Not me.
Thursday, suppose to go out with Adam and Marsya. It's not yet confirmed, but I don't think it's cancelled either.
Friday, if Zhen's back, it might be the only day we're both free and at home.
Saturday, FREE DAY. Which I think my dad wants to ruin if he's home.
Sunday, Zhen's suppose to come to my house. To bake cookies :D

WHAT HAPPENED TO HIBERNATING?! Plus no one was nice enough to tell me my homework. Sem, she's too busy HIBERNATING. Lucky ass. Alya, she ASKED me -.-' I seriously had no comment. Zhen, Vonee, Chris, Sooling, Shihou are probably still in their respective hometowns. I don't want to bother them. Aswad won't know. For sure. Afy's in Kelantan. I don't want to bother her either. I should've come to school. I SHOULD'VE. I hate myself.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

If you can do it too.

2010-02-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

I'm turning into a blogger junkie. And this has to happen NOW. When blogger is becoming boring and not 'cool'. When it was, I wasn't a junkie.

Sorry. I just miss my necklace.

I'm waiting for the world to change. ♥

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I see you with your friends.

2010-02-14T01:48:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentines and CNY.
Though not many people are actually happy.

Should I?
Then that's just something that makes me more attracted to you.

I miss my beloved necklace.
Where in the world are you?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Boy, I want a battle.

2010-02-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY BALLERINA NECKLAAAACCCCEEEEEEE )':
I ransacked my whole room looking for it. I NEED IT FOR MARCH. 'Cause it only matches my dress, and I'm suppose to wear it to some occasion.

WHERE IS IIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTT? Urgh.
)':

Please show up. I beg you. You're my favourite necklace ):

Don't ask. Yes, it's my favourite. And I'm sure you're wondering why it's not kept in the first place. Well, once upon a time in was in a small red dainty bag. Next thing you know, BAM. It's not there. WHY ISN'T IT THERE?

I don't want to think this.... but did someone steal it? O:
Unfortunately, if that DID happen (which I really really really hope not :\ ARGH. I'm so depressed I'm thinking super negatively. I'm blaming my friends of crime. OHMYGOSH D;: ), only some people have been in my room ):

AAHHHHH
CHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOICHOI

)':

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

We were so the same.

2010-02-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

Reasons to be happy today ;

I have the rest of the day to do anything I want.
Tomorrow is a Sunday, and I have nothing to do. I can start hibernating tomorrow, along with my mother.
Afy gave me a song suggestion for the dance. Since I had nothing to do, I listened to that song over and over again. Now it's on repeat and I have no choice but to choose that song now.
I have no reason to be emo. YET.
I made progress in Rules Of Gentility. It's such a Jane Austen-ish book. Inigo Linsley sounds hot.
I can solve the Rubik's cube without any reference from anywhere.
Puan Jun promised to help me with Encik Azwie's homework, relieving me.

Reasons to not be happy today ;

~~Puan Jun wants to have tuition on Tuesday.~~
~~Mama's not home yet. She promised to be home by 6:15 to feed me.~~
~~My books are getting boring. OH NO!~~
~~I have homework.~~
~~I have 3 projects to do.~~
~~I have hiccups.~~
~~I'm hungry.~~

I need more reasons to be happy. Starting with food.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Just the way you are.

2010-02-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

Puan Junaidah says my essay writing is the same level as a 12 year old. Apparently, I haven't moved on in the past one year. I need help.

My facebook is dead. And so is my msn. I need a life. I'd text someone, but I'm learning to save credit. I shall over-credit Melanie since she has 60 bucks already. Eveil person.

I. Am. Bored. No one is online. Everyone's going back to their hometowns and I'm alone in the house. Even if I text someone, I'd be disturbing them. Unless they text me first. I doubt it. I doubt you'd text me either. I don't mind. Honestly, I don't. I think.

If I'm so bored, I shall read my storybooks. But Puan Junaidah will sue me if she finds out. Because I have the vocabulary of a 12 year old, she wants me to read the newspapers and the Dewan Bahasa magazines. Of which I don't think I have the patience to understand. I'll end up reading Darren Shan or Rules Of Gentility anyway.

I want the 3rd book in the Darren Shan trilogy. As in, the 7th to 9th book compiled to one book. I can't believe Darren Shan is capable of writing 12 books in one series, about one boy's life. I guess there might be more, but this is the most I've come across. Yes, it is somewhat fascinating to me.

I have a feeling you'll get a BM post sooner or later. Since I don't think there's any other better place to practise than here. My dear non-existent readers; you don't mind do you? Fine then. I shall post one up when I'm feeling more Melayu-d.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Everytime you kiss me.

2010-02-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. Nayli says I'm a "penagih blog". I guess I am.

I can officially solve the Rubik's cube now. I did it three times. WOOOOO! But the failed black one hates me. I couldn't do it with that one. But the white one loves meee! :)

I love Alain Clark. He's so cute. In his Father and Friend video. I believe I've posted the video up last year. You can go hunt for it >D My mom changed the channel to hitz. And so happens the same song is on the TV and my WLP.

I shall TRY not to be a penagih blog. Aswad's already a penagih desoldering tool. One penagih is enough in the class :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You can't come down.

2010-02-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

I regret not going to school now. Afy's no help. In fact, she's rubbing it in my face. Yeah. So much for friend, you retarded girl -.-' :D

I tried calling Zhen to wish her CNY, but no one picked up. I guess she went to her grandparents house already. ARGH. I'm so emo. I'm having mood swings. I neeeeeeeeed Guitar Hero. Can someone PLEASE be nicer than my family and get me one before I have a permanent personality disorder.

Can someone (also) be nice to me? ):

Oh darling, I wish you were here.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

When love comes around.

2010-02-12T13:29:00.001+08:00

I DID IT! I SOLVED THE RUBIK'S CUBE!

OH HOLY HALLELUJAAHHHHHHHH ;D

Yes. It's nerdy and stuff. But it's still coolio. Now, if I can only solve it faster...

As you can see, I destroyed the other one. It failed me ):

Oh. Finally! Now I have to remember how to actually do it. AND I SHALL TAKE OVER THE WORLD! Or rather, my household ;D

But I can never challenge this dude ;

Adam Azman.

See lah.

Twist the thing also damn pro.

Suddenly I talk to him alot. This happened when I reunited him with Azwin, Marsya, Haiqal, Nadira, Kak Win and probably Zarol soon. This isn't a bad thing, not at all :)

And I convinced my mom I'm not going to school. Fyfy promised to call me for homework, which I hope there isn't much. Or none at all. Sem called me a lucky ass. Alya's gonna get a new frightening book to read from Puan Shah, of which I think I'm too scared to read it. I have nightmares - who doesn't? Zhen claims to be okay if I don't come. I feel bad about that though. I abandoned her.

But I've been dying to try out my new Skin Foooood. It's BLACK.

It looks so pretty :) Much better than the Silky Girl Adlina gave me. That one was no use ;p

I'mma miracle worker. Wooooo! :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

It's just another day without you.

2010-02-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

I love The All-American Rejects. No, I've heard of them a long time ago, and I've probably mentioned it. But suddenly I'm addicted to long-ago songs from my phone. Like I Wanna, All Star, The Way I Are, Knock You Down, Contagious and Body Language.

I seriously need to know who's going to school. I feel too lazy to go. But I'll most probably be going. I DON'T WANT TO. Argh. But Zhen, Afy & Alya will be maaaaaddddd at me if I fail them. I shall not let that happen. SEE, I do value our friendship :D

I'm going to bathe now. Gosh, so lazy to go to schoooool. It's so near to the holidays, yet so far ): Hi, Agama.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Always kept you laughin'.

2010-02-12T01:17:00.001+08:00

What did I say? It's not even the holidays yet and I'm blogging like crap at one in the morning on a Thursday night of which I'm going to school tomorrow and I know I can't wake up at the right time tomorrow. I've also bought a new bottle of black nail polish for the holidays. I'm ready.

I'm going to Zhen's house :) I shall be wearing red! Since I hardly wear the red polish, and my red shirt. And I just wear it for fun :D And she'll probably be coming to my house to help me bake COOKIES! Or cupcakes. Or brownies. Or whatever we're rajin enough to do from my Chocolate book. I'm dying to try something out. Was suppose to do so in December, but we both forgot about it. But no worries. It shall happen this week! :D

I just hope they won't get burnt ._.

Anyway. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. But I want to. Depends on who's going. Afy said she's going. Alya promised not to ditch me, I take her word. Soo's coming. Zhen's forced to. Aswad didn't reply my text -.-' Chris, I think so. Sem, I'm not sure when she starts hibernating. Adris, I don't know o_o Oh. I should give him 10 cents for upah refilling my bottle this evening. THANKYOU :D

Soo asked me to go to sleep. Says she has important stuff to do. At one in the morning. Yeah, I believe her. I want to sleep. But I'm too lazy to. I need to brush my teeth. Change to my pajamas (I can't exactly sleep in my utmost beloved brand-ner Paddington T-shirt can I?). X everything. Shut down. Clean the bed. Clear my head. Get to sleep. And make sure I don't get depressing/hopeful dreams.

I'm just a giant lazy blurcase sleepy panda.
Afy's my blurcase monkey, and Shihou's our oh-so-adorable Alvin :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

It started out as a feeling.

2010-02-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

I feel sad and lonely whenever I listen to Vanilla Twilight. Yes, it's one of the best songs I've ever heard. But I feel down. Hmm. I don't think anyone can help now. Except you. Honestly. But I don't want to.

I'm just so confused. Have people forgotten how to be nice? ):

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I dress up like I'm four.

2010-02-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

When you're around I don't know what to do
I do not think that I can wait
To go over and to talk to you
I do not know what I should say

And I walk out in silence
That's when i start to realize
What you bring to my life
Damn this guy can make me cry
It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high

All the time

They all say that you're no good for me
But I'm too close to turn around
I'll show them they don't know anything
I think I've got you figured out

So I walk out in silence
That's when i start to realize
What you bring to my life
Damn this guy can make me smile

It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high
All the time

I'll give you everything
I'll treat you right
If you just give me a chance
I can prove I'm right

It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high

It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high

All the time

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You're better than the best.

2010-02-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

I need a life.

You know, I hope the world doesn't change so fast. Because ;

1) I love my class. It's just missing 1 or 2 people, and it's the PERFECT class :D
2) I don't want to change classes -.-'
3) Pagi session. PUH-LEASE. D:
4) I want to be fourteen forever :)
5) This only happens in Neverland. And it gives me a reason to move there :D ♥

Now. I shall finish trying to solve the rubik's cube. I'M UP TO THE LAST LAYERRRRR (: I still hate you, Adam. :]

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I gotta hold on you tonight.

2010-02-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

We did mini-welding today in KH. Aswad became a drug addict with the desoldering tool, and berpemateri-ing is AWESOME ;D Can't wait to do it. But I keep on shivering when I do it though. :\

Afy and I have figured out some of the dance moves. And I've found a partner. I think. I hope he doesn't bail though. Encik Azwie made us do a laporan in 35 minutes. And I think most people are safely at home now. I HOPE.

I finished mine. But I was 12 words short. I ended up with 185 words. Alya got 306 the first time. OHMYGOD. You are so gonna do my karangans for me.

Argh. I'm so lazy. Have to wake up early tomorrow. There goes my sleep ):

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I need you here.

2010-02-09T10:43:00.012+08:00

You know what day it is? It's Tuesday. Also the ninth day of the second month. Get it now? Fine. I'll tell you.

It's my darling Shasmeeta's birthdaaayyyy! :D
Happy fourteenth girll.

I remember I used to change seats with Shaqeer and sit next to you and Sheryl in 6 Teratai. The year you were our oh-so-very-awesome ketua. And Fysal, our penolong. :D Wheeeee! That year was super awesome, aight?

Yes. We have no better pictures together. And I had to take the ones with my retarded haircut. But, Ily girl. Stay fourteen kay? :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And then he glanced.

2010-02-09T10:36:00.000+08:00

I'm addicted to Boom - Sin. It's like, I don't know how to describe. 'Cause it ain't exactly the type of song I'd listen to. If I tell this to my friends, they'd think an alien abducted my brain.

And you know what's the bad thing about alllll this? From Where You Are is exactly after Boom. Which means if I listen to Boom repeatedly from my playlist, I'll end up listening to From Where You Are too. I can't exactly skip such an awesome sentimental song right? Come on. It's not like you can do it too.

I feel so lazy. I shall tumblr! ;D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Shawty lookin' so fine.

2010-02-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm forcing people to come online. YAY! Just when K came online, A went off. NICE TIMING A.

I want to go out this CNY. With Marsya and Adam. OU honeyh! My mom won't let me go to Mid Valley. Too far away lah, Mawrsh. Sorry. But then we can crash at Adam's house and ransack it :D We're gonna have to take GILA BANYAK photos. And since my phone's outta memory and I probably won't be brave enough to bring my semi-pro, we're all counting on your phone Mawrsh. Get it LOTS of rest ;)

God, I'm excited. So, it's either Thursday or Friday. And other days? HIBERNATE. I shall be a little - or more likely, heeyooooje - panda in my sanctuary and facebook and blog allllll day long. This is the time you shall see more than 10987657273 posts in a day. This is also the century that you'll catch me preferring Sims 3 over sleep. Since I'll be getting that in the morning, I shall be nocturnal for a week. Chloe and Coral need attention. Especially Coral. She can't talk, walk or poop properly yet :\ Chloe is much more smarter, advanced and prettier than her twin sister. Coral looks like, urgh. Yes, I'm a very peculiar creature.

I need the holidays urgently. D:

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Hawk in the sky.

2010-02-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

Afy and Chris were chasing Shihou and Aswad around today. Begging the boys to join the dance group. I'm co-choreographing. And actually, I bailed the group. But now that I know the choreo's awesome, I feel like joining. WHICH MEANS, I need to find a partner. Of the opposite gender. Who's taller than me. And someone I know. And sort of close to. Or just okay with. I DON'T HAVE MANY CHOICES ._.

Which allllllllll means I might have to bail - again. Oh well. :)

Tomorrow I've got KH. I have to do the pemateri thing. I'm gonna bully someone to do it for me >D I'm so eveil.

On the super bright side, guess what day is it tomorrow? Yes, it's Tuesday, my bag's gonna be somewhat light. Yes, it's the 9th, I survived more than a month of 2010. Combine them together? Well, I shall tell you tomorrow :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

How far can you take it?

2010-02-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

It's Monday! ARGH D:

And Puan Tan is probably changing the schedule. Means I'll have to redesign my beloved jadual. It's in my homework book. Yes, I have a homework book. But people invade them. But not as much as Afy's. I actually manage to get homework in :D

I shall beg Sem to trade seats with me, which I think will be unsucessful. But I shall try! She's so evil.

I'm so sleepy. MOM! Do I have to go to school? ):

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I don't feel so alone.

2010-02-07T19:23:00.013+08:00

I'm bored. My dad came back. And now I have my very own digital watch. And it has this coolio light. I SHALL USE IT AT NIGHT! ;D

So, yeah. I went to Faiq's birthday party yesterday, and then went shopping. Got a new bag, and books. Sort of. I gave myself a limit. Well, d'uh! I have one unopened book, and I'm in the midst of reading 6. And I just bought 2 new ones. IT WAS HARD ):

I'm so jakun MSN. I've been talking to Sabrina lately. Since she seems to be the only one online. So, we exchanged hot people yesterday ;D Well, okay. It was more of Sabrina introducing me to hot people :D Okay. Maybe not introducing. CONCLUSION, Tenby has hot people. I want to mooooooveeee ):

People seem to have darlings, dears, babes, babys, sayangs, etc. I'm currently Afy's darling and Alya's Ice. I didn't bother to have any. I just call them all darling :D

I want to jakun with Sabrina. Byebye, darlings (:

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

'Cause I left my heart with you.

2010-02-06T20:21:00.001+08:00

Ohmygod. The picture is soooo prettttyyyyyyyy! (:

Had fun today. Afiqah sat in Aswad's place, Alya next to her, Chris next to Xin Yen, and Soo next to me. And of course, James and Yovenraj. Yi Siang sat next to James during Geo, though. Cause Zongyang left him ;p

So, yes. Today was very fun.
I love them :D

& you too. ♥

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I'll be love's suicide.

2010-02-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

I liked today (:
Half of the people I know aren't coming tomorrow though. Ditchers.

I'm loaning my precious Vanilla Twilight, Fireflies and You Belong With Me piano scores to Bowen, Christina and their group. For a performance. I don't know for what. So, yes. My very precious scores.

I was over you. And we had to talk until you made me fall in love again.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I don't drive a Mercedes.

2010-02-05T11:07:00.015+08:00

That picture is so uber pretty! I want that dresssssss :D

I vow to try not to be emo today. And I shall beg Sem to trade places with me. I want the fan. I WANT THE FAN. I only get it for 5 minutes every day. Of which I'm torn between the fan and my darling table ):

Okay. I'm getting emo again, I think. Today is Friday. Which means I have school tomorrow, nothing to hooray about. My mom's forcing me to go. I'm in the process of begging her to let me skip. Honestly, I don't mind Fridays. Except the Agama. OH THE AGONY OF HER FAAAAAAAACE.

You know who I'm talking about.
Well, actually it's two people. But I'm starting to tolerate the other, now that I've seen what a bitch the other can be. The only good thing about Agama is that I get to sit at be beloved original table againnnnn. And probably for the rest of the year. I just hope we don't learn in the surau again. I hate it. A lot. A lot a lot.

It's even more horrifying if I can't get my tudung on right. ARGH. I need new ones. Or something like Elysa's. I like hers. Very decent and awesome :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Here to reduce the pain.

2010-02-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

American Idol cheers me up, alright! :D
I'm so jealous of some of them. So pretty and talented. *sigh.

I just can't seem to stay happy for more than 5 minutes.
THIS CALLS FOR AN HOUR PHONE CALL! ;)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You can see my heart beating.

2010-02-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

Do you realise how hard is it for me?
I have a feeling those eeny weeny creeping jealousy every time you talk to a girl indicates that I like you. A lot.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I'm lifting up my voice.

2010-02-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

You know what? I have a feeling I'm falling for you. And probably this has been going on for a looong time. I just didn't know it.

I'm emo today. Didn't feel like talking about it to anyone. I wasn't the only one though. James and Sooling also emo. But Sooling was sorta hyper-emo. James memang emo-emo. I knew I was emo when I started drawing rain in my Seni scenery, and drew a miniature Eeyore. My utmost favourite donkey.

I honestly hate my new place. I hate it. Everyone's so far away.

Ohmygod. I'm so emo. I don't exactly feel like being emo, or happy, or neutral. I shall stay emo.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You make me feel high.

2010-02-04T00:17:00.057+08:00

You wanna know what I've been bringing home lately? Afy's Afiq-ah book. Yeahp. It's like I'm the owner now. Remember the ABC game I've been telling you about so much lately? Well, yeah. I'm here to post the pictures. Since the book is now in my posession - for the third time.

Lemme introduce you to them (or their names are in the picture) and also the contents of this oh-so-very awesome book :D ;

People fall so hard for this.

I almost died laughing.

Zhenling. BAHAHAHA.

Karwei ;p

Bowen o_o

Christina above, Joshua below.

TWINS! o:

These four aren't exactly the ABC game.

They're the last celebs I'd wanna see on earth ;)

Mervyn can't be a celeb can he?

Or probably something like Britney Spears?

EWWWW, yuck o:

These are results of the old one; the first one.

I'm the smexxiest ;)

My masterpiece ;]

Mind you;

I doodle on her book more than I do on mine.

It's like I actually do own this book.

And of course.

Our uttermost favourite page :)

*do click if you still can't see it*

Done by yours truly :)

I'm very proud of it :D

So, that's practically what spams the little Guardian book. Originally it was for homework. But I noticed she has another book for that. What a sacrifice. ;p

This is the only reason I go to school. To spam people's books ;D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Let me whisper in your ear.

2010-02-03T23:08:00.004+08:00

I HATE MY CURRENT SEAT. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LIFELESS TEACHER. GET A FREAKING LIFE AND DON'T LET IT OUT ON US. WE ARE living. NOT LIKE YOU. STUBBORN LIFELESS TEACHER.

I'm done. I seriously hate my new seat. I want my old one back. And everyone in their original position. Now we have to change every month. EVERY FREAKING MONTH. Why don't we just stay put and everyone's happy?

Since Christina asked me to search some lyrics, I'mma stuck to Baby, Justin Bieber. Don't get me wrong, he looks uglier than La Carlotta. But the song's okay :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Always on the need.

2010-02-02T19:57:00.000+08:00

BM was unusually awesome today. Had hella loads of fun :D We had to do a ringkasan but in point form. Actually, peta minda. And it had to be relevant to the topic, which was kemalangan jalan raya. I suggested the points to be written within fire balls, released by a crashed car. It turned out strikingly awesome :D And guess what was our last-minute group name? API GROUP ;] Thanks to the oh-so-creative Christina.

Drama was postponed. We did some component project thingy majigy in KH. Teacher was talking to himself in IT. And Afy & I did the ABC game on Bowen, Aswad, Joshua & Jiaying. They look hot ;) Especially Bowen. 6 pack body, HAHA. Close after that, Aswad. 6 pack body + pout & pigtails. Aww ;p What an insult to pigtail fans.

That sort of concludes my day. I'm too freaking lazy to go to St. Johns tomorrow.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Together with the sun.

2010-02-01T23:13:00.020+08:00

Today sucked. I think. Yeah, partly. Probably 5 reasons ;

a) Because it's a Monday. Who's happy on a Monday?
b) I can't balance properly O:
c) Christina says Andy Murray ain't hot. She has glasses already, she can't still be blind!
d) I'm 5050 on the drama auditions. Shasha's going, Hana too. Plus Afy and Puteri. It's solo maann. I want to, but I have stage fright -.- O: \:
e) Because I had to go from the surau to the bilik guru, then surau then to class and back to surau. Urgh. My legs hurt ):
f) There's Agama, and Puan Nik came. I'd be lying if I said I'd like her. I'd be lying if I said I dislike her too. Since the teachers blog-surf, I ain't sure if it's safe to say. But then again, I have the right, right? So, yes. I hate her. There. I said it. Hi, Puan Shah. Cik Ahni. Teacher.

That was the negetives. These are the positives ;

a) I got to do the ABC game with Alya & Christina. Christina always manage to get the weirdest features put together and the fat body. Tsk tsk. I pity you, dear.
b) We practically did nothing in the surau, except read.
c) I HAVE NO HOMEWORK! Or I finished it. Or it's with someone else.
d) Sem fell for the Alpha Kenny Body prank. Super hellarious. You shoulda been there ;D
e) More people think Murray is hot. IN YOUR FACE CHRIS! >D
f) I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

Whoa. 5/5. I need to be more positive. But it's start. Usually when I count them, the bad ones will conquer the good ones.

I spent recess with Puteri and Afy in the library. My Science homework made progress there. Which is a good thing. Usually my homework doesn't inch at ALL in the library.

Over all. I'm satisfied :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Until we're strong enough.

2010-02-01T10:53:00.000+08:00

Happy February people! :D

We've officially survived one month of 2010. So, congratulations? :)
For those who didn't, well. Too bad then ;p

I know I've been emo, but I survived didn't I? I'm still alive. I have a wishblog now. And you now what? My private blog has 5 posts already. 2 bitch posts, 1 thankful post, and 1 missed post. Yeah. I love blogging. I'm lifeless.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

So we'll crawl.

2010-01-31T23:07:00.011+08:00

Andy Murraaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

He's so damn hotttt. Christina is so blind! Even with glasses? Girl, are you okay? Or do you need a whack on the head? I'd gladly do that for you ;)

If I'm not mistaken, he looks sort of like an actor. I'm not sure who. OH YEAAAAAHHHHH! Penn Badgley :)

See the similarity? No wonder I liked Murray :)

Oh. I love him. And he beats Djokovic maaannnnnnnn! ;]

Just for my satisfaction.

He looks uber cute :D :D :D :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Lost the hue.

2010-01-31T18:27:00.032+08:00

Alya came over again today. BM karangan. But we didn't really do anything. :)

Well, except camwhore of course. But we got retarded photos of each other. And we practised marching.

We were actually gossiping. So I randomly took the scenery :D

DAMN FREAKING FUNNY! ;D

Loooooook!

A floating lemon cotton ball ;D

Do you see it? Do you?

And this is to the people who doesn't believe that my tapak kasut looks like this;

Now you believe me? ;p
Ain't it cooool? :D

So, yeah. That sort of concludes my day. Nothing much was finished, but it was fun. Sort of like a play date. I've never had one in yearrrrrsssssssss. I should have another one. :]

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

What is wrong.

2010-01-31T17:48:00.021+08:00

Happy 300th post? :D

This is bragging. It took me so long to get to 300. I love my blog :) *hugs*

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And we'll run.

2010-01-30T17:00:00.002+08:00

I just looked through my archive. I was such a different person then. I changed so much. Then I came across a few depressing (it was awesome then) posts. You know, if that little secret wasn't told, the world would be different.

Imagine what 3 words could do.

I know I've changed, and you've changed too.

But did our friendship had to end on a note of betrayal?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Like never before.

2010-01-30T16:36:00.001+08:00

Should I go for it?
Cause the teenage-standard-social-rule-book part of my brain says no.

Why now? Why today? Why here?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

He shot her down.

2010-01-30T14:48:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday. Three cheers for the weekend. I feel so free. No homework to be passed up in an hour, no homework to be passed up tomorrow, no tuition. I can't remember when my Saturday felt as nice as it does now.

False Impression is becoming boring. I need a chick lit book. Something like "Spud" or "I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have To Kill You" or "Thirteen Reasons Why" or "Speak". I could just read "Pick Me Up" again, since it's one my favourite books, but I already know the plot.

I need to get these four books. I'm getting 'em. I have to. Even though I'm in the middle of reading 5 books, I'd like to own them. They look nice to read. And yes, I know, I won't have a place to keep them in. But it's now I work psychologically. My mother forgives me.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

One thing I know.

2010-01-30T00:30:00.011+08:00

Talking with Zhen is relieving. I feel much better. And she happens to forward the best chain mails ever invented. And none of those "you'll die at 5am cause a freaking dead clown from 1698 came out of your toilet bowl" crap.

She sent me the most inspiring chain mail ever created on the face of this Earth. But in this emo mood, it makes me more depressed and makes me want to cry. But I still love it.

Makes me realise (':
Thanks, jie. Ily ♥

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

My new love now.

2010-01-29T21:46:00.001+08:00

I really have nothing to say. My blog will turn emo if this continues. This is not good.

Who can I talk to now? Who can I trust? It's like, everyone wants me to quit. Quit school, quit socially, quit the world. Maybe even quit life. Yeah. That's how you make me feel. So, hon, I'm not gonna be there anymore. Obviously you have better friends than me, and I'd bet my life you'd choose them over me anytime, anyplace. Yup. Maybe I'm quitting being your friend too. Thanks, babe.

I'm still not done emo-ing. My friends would be wondering. Or rather, friend.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I hope it rains.

2010-01-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

I feel sick. And I don't want to come to school. But I've already agreed to get Christina's books if she didn't come.

I want to sleep. And should I go? This is hard.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And I never wanna tell a lie.

2010-01-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen.

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth.

And it's draining all of me.

I trusted you.

Yeah, that would be my first mistake.

Gone away are the golden days.

So now I find denial in my eyes.

Trapped in by regret.

There's no way out, no way in.

Where I felt the stars explode around me.

Did you forget about me?

Did you forget that I was even alive?

I feel like I've been holding back.

The giving up is the hardest part.

And I ache to remember.

This is the story of a girl.

Who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

I just want you to know who I am.

You're the only one I wish I could forget.

Don't wake me.

Can you see the track of my tears?

All there's left to do is run.

Then you came crashing in.

Everything I know fades to black.

Half the time the world is ending.

Truth is I am done pretending.

Holding onto patience wearing thin.

I can't force these eyes to see in the end.

We were the victims of ourselves.

There was a time I packed my dreams away.

But soon they'll take us down.

And truth be told I'm lying.

Honestly, what will become of me?

No, really.

Do you hear the words I say?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

There's nothing inside me.

2010-01-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

I need to call someone. Alya's phone doesn't seem to be on earth. Christina's mother complains if she talks on the phone for even a half an hour. Yvonne is probably doing homework, too goody-goody. Semreeta has tuition 24/7, and will soon be doing homework. Adlina is, well, she'd be talking with her boyfriends. Afiqah would be decorating her book. Sooling would be too busy, she's like the walking dead in school.

I don't know who to trust anymore.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You had your chance.

2010-01-28T20:06:00.000+08:00

School was aight. Need I say more about Puan Shah's class? I needed to get everyone to bring their Geo books tomorrow, which I doubt they'd still remember.

I'm annoyed. Really, annoyed. But I'm not sure by what. It could be Julie in The Biggest Loser. It could be the fact that I'm hungry. It could be because I don't feel like going out this weekend. It could be because you're becoming really lala. It could be because you somehow change, or maybe I've only now just realise. It could be because I'm fat. It could be because I have Agama tomorrow. It could be because most of the topics for the English essay reminds me of my dad. It could be the fact that the Johor TMJ now has a beard. It could be the fact that I'm just tired of everything that's going on in this world. It could be all of the above.

Yes, I'm emo-ing. I don't feel like coming to school tomorrow, and I've got St. Johns marching. I don't think I'm going for that either. I'm just effing tired. Life's exhausting. Puan Shah said, we should'nt feel like that because we've only lived for 14 years. Guess what? I think it's enough.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Forget how to breathe.

2010-01-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

St. Johns was awesome today! We did marching. And apparently, my squad's the biggest, with 13 members. Whoa.

Adlina's coming home with me today. It's her first time at the tuition and she's scared, cause of Ben. Obviously Ben finds the teacher strict, I find her tolerable. She doesn't seem to have a calculator either -.-'

I'm bored.
Blogger is boring, but I still blog. Any reason why?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Shine like gold.

2010-01-26T21:11:00.021+08:00

All I wanted was to fly.

School was decent today. We had this gotong-royong thing the first two periods, because visitors from the ministry were coming tomorrow. As a result, KH was cut to only 1 period. But I still felt sleepy. Then, IT. Sooling ran away and came to me, after Alya went for her break.

After break, while walking to class, I randomly called Adam Azman and said "hi". Greeting people ain't a crime, right? So, we all went down to the Science lab. Teacher took too long to prepare something, so I ended up spamming Afiqah's book. She & Alya commented saying that it looked like my body was here and my soul was somewhere else. I said it was true. Soon after, I made 2 Terataians into a crossword. It was awesome! :D

At BM time, Cikgu Azwie asked us all to write a certain essay to enter a sort-of competition. He would collect the best ones, bind them and sell it. I doubt mine would be among the selected ones. Alya didn't pass up hers, making her disqualified. Pity. I can almost guarantee hers would the one of the first choices ;)

And so I'm here. I liked today. I really did. :]

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I'd give everything.

2010-01-24T20:45:00.032+08:00

I went to San Francisco Steakhouse for dinner. The chicken Maryland is baaaaackk! (: And the trip would be incomplete if I didn't eat the Chocolate Fondue. If that's how you spell it.

After that, guess what my dad payed for?

PADDINGTON BEAR T-SHIRTS :D

My favourite bear of ALL time :)

Wanna know what it says?

I love the London scenery :D

My FAVOURITE! (:

And each one of then had this cute little yellow tag that said

AWWWWWWWWWW.

How cute is thaaatttt? :]

There was a 50% discount for each, so I managed to buy all three. If I haven't said this before, I've only NOW realised I love all things English. Like, Paddington Bear, AJ Buckley (who's an Irish born, it counts), Fun Song Factory, Merlin and Paddington's House Of Pancakes.

Puan Shah also said, if you were to run away from your house, go to another country altogether. My first choice would be Alya's house. Second is England. ;)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And heavy wings grow lighter.

2010-01-24T13:19:00.001+08:00

So, I've only got Geo, Science, Bahasa Melayu and Sejarah homework. Two of which is just note-copying from other people, so it shouldn't be a problem. BM isn't that much of a problem either, I just need to get my grammar straight. It's the Sejarah that's a problem. Guess what I have to do?

Map drawing.

My worst trait ever.

Okay, so it may not be as bad. But then again, when I started drawing it on Friday, I think Christina got fed up or something and she drew Semenanjung Malaysia for me. Aww, thanks kid ;) But now I'm having trouble drawing a zoomed Asia Tenggara.

I'm proud of my Seni title though. Took me both periods to finish. It's probably the best art/block letters/whatever I've done before :)

I've been asking for a new camera of my own, may it be a professional, or semi-pro. But I want one. I shall ask Atok for one - again.

My mother's decided to give me a time limit on the computer, and a bedtime. Usually, I don't sleep late because I want to, I sleep late because I have to. Partly. It's the homework! Blame the teachers :P So, yes. I won't be on Facebook 24/7 anymore, like I am now. Honestly, I can't help but go to Facebook. I'll just randomly open a new tab, click Facebook, then 'X' it within 2 minutes. Fascinating.

I should buy a new eraser. It's dying, thanks to Alya, Christina, Afiqah, and later Xin Yen. Crazy pencil spider-webbing people. And it's also the cause of the almost-tear in my Sejarah book.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I like where we are.

2010-01-23T20:34:00.001+08:00

I love Puan Shah. Apparenly, she blog hops. If you see this, HELLO! :D

Right. School was sort of awesome today. But the best parts was after recess, where school seems somewhat meaningful :)

Alya has very good taste in books. I'm hooked on her Jeffrey Archer, although I wanted to throw mine out. Does she sprinkle magic dust on her books or something? She promised to lend it to me on Monday. And I've forgotten to ask her for my Kissed By An Angel back. I shall force myself to read False Impressions. Just to satisfy myself. Oh, and I still need to search for my real Phantom Of The Opera to lend to Christina. This is becoming a book exchange o_o

*click to enlarge.*

The most played song on my playlist shot up from 3 to 84. Since yesterday evening. Is that even possible? O_O Dayumnn. I must really like that song.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I wish you could have seen us.

2010-01-22T12:48:00.002+08:00

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are
I’m standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

Thanks, kiddo. I wish I had a boyfriend like you. I congratulate her.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And it was like boom.

2010-01-21T22:59:00.004+08:00

I need to change my blogger password. I've just realised its easy to hack. You don't want that to happen too, now do you? :O

Today, we had the counseling thingy before rehat, which meant we skipped English instead of Seni. Adlina was disappointed because she really wanted to skip Agama. As for my class, well, I'll bet we all dreaded Seni. In fact, Christina and I cursed the teacher in class, then I texted Adlina this evening, and the foul words started pouring.

I'm suppose to do Maths corrections, and I've finished my English homework. I really really like Puan Shah, and I'm amazed she remembered I didn't come yesterday. She's my current favourite teacher. So far. :)

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Her hips tossed.

2010-01-20T16:07:00.001+08:00

My knight in shining armour. I love you.

I'm skipping school today. I didn't go for St. Johns, and I slept until 11:28. Since my shoulder hurts more than ever (it's been like this since last week, I can't stand it! -.-), my family agreed to let me skip school. But I know it'll be boring. Especially since Sabrina just ditched me on facebook. You know I still love you ;)

I'm watching So You Think You Can Dance again now. I really really wish Twitch had won. Did I tell you that? No, I said I was rooting for Joshua. Change of mind! :D

Now, thanks to the show, I'm addicted to the Hallelujah cover by Vitamin String Quartet. Yeahp, it's instrumental. But it's so cooool :D The original is nice too. All the more reason to love Paramore.

I need to stop doing posts for 3 hours and get distracted so easily. I'm going to read my book. Since everyone seems to ignore me O_O"

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Get your game on.

2010-01-19T21:01:00.001+08:00

When you laugh, I laugh.
And we'll laugh together.

I need to post a surat kiriman tidak rasmi to Encik Azwie. He also warned us to not post his address online. Who'd wanna do that?

We skipped Science, due to the assembly in the dewan. The teacher asked the girls to dance what I call the Chicken Dance Remix. When the girls ran away, the guys were suppose to do it. When the guys sat down instead, Kye Xien did it :) He pulled out Shaqeer later.

This post took me 1 hour. I'm watching So You Think You Can Dance finale. I know you are too. So, naturally, I'd be typing during advertisements. I'd vote Phillip for the popping battle. He was buuuuuckk! I'm rooting for Courtney and Joshua, although I know who's won. I like Twitch. He's buck too. Somehow, I don't really like Katee. Her hands are all over the place when she jumps.

Courtney is really really pretty! :D And she looks so cute with Gev. I think I'll watch it properly now. Bye humans!

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥